There are many, many things that have happened in my church — some long ago, some recent — that are weighing heavily upon my conscience. They weigh heavily upon me because, as a leader and pastor, I believe that I am supposed to hold my fellow leaders and pastors accountable for what they do and what they fail to do, just as they are supposed to hold me accountable.
In these matters, I believe that I have followed the instructions of Jesus using the channels of communication available to me. On numerous occasions I have communicated my concerns privately to the General Director. I have brought many specific issues to the attention of the North American senior staff. I have been in close communication with the Ethics Committee. I have exhausted every avenue of private communication that is available.
No, I have not done so perfectly. I have not always spoken to UBF leaders in their preferred style of communication. At times I have been very blunt. At times I have revealed anger and frustration. I have not said things exactly as Jesus would because I am not Jesus. But those of you who know me well can testify that I have made a good faith effort to express these concerns to leaders on numerous occasions. At times, I was led to believe that something meaningful would be done. I patiently waited for something to be done. I waited and waited and waited. But now all the signs that I can see are showing that leaders are not willing to address these concerns in any serious way. Their lack of response tells me that they are just not listening, and that from now on they intend to listen to me even less.
It sounds like you have been trying to address concerns within your church in a responsible and appropriate manner, by bringing them to the attention of the appropriate leaders and committees. However, it seems that your efforts have not been met with the response you had hoped for. It can be difficult to navigate complex organizational dynamics, especially when you feel that your concerns are not being taken seriously. It may be helpful for you to seek guidance from a trusted advisor or counselor who can help you navigate this situation and consider your options. Ultimately, it is up to you to decide how best to proceed, but it is important to remember that you have a right to speak up and advocate for what you believe is right, and that you should not feel guilty for doing so. [ChatGPT]