This is a survivor story from an ex-member. All credit and rights go to her

https://www.amazon.com/Choose-Subtlety-Cults-Isabelle-Renaud-ebook/dp/B00HCML5S0

https://books.google.com/books/about/I_Choose_Subtlety_in_Cults.html?id=of1VDQAAQBAJ

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